"Anybody here?..."

"...Hey, Old Man. You home tonight? Can You spare a minute? It's about time we had a little talk. I know I'm a pretty evil fellow... got drunk and the like. I know I got no call to ask for much... but even so, You've got to admit You ain't dealt me no cards in a long time. It's beginning to look like You got things fixed so I can't never win out. Inside, outside, all of them... rules and regulations and bosses... You made me like I am. Now just where am I supposed to fit in?

... I gotta tell You. I started out pretty strong and fast. But it's beginning to get to me. When does it end? What do You got in mind for me? What do I do now?

...Right. All right. [Gets on knees, closes eyes & begins to pray] On my knees, askin'. [Peeks up with one eye, waits. Opens eyes, crosses arms]. Yeah, that's what I thought. I guess I'm pretty tough to deal with, huh? A hard case. Yeah... Is that Your answer, Old Man? I guess You're a hard case, too."

Every now and again the God and I will have a conversation like this one from Cool Hand Luke. Just about the time I start believing that things are that way, about the time I start having my own pity party & start felling sorry for myself and all my 'huge' troubles and miseries He opens my eyes and I get a glimpse of how things really are....

"Yeah, that's what I thought...on my knees thankin'."